The Notepad..

During my college days I used to keep pocket size notepads. And I used to write - phone numbers, songs, book names, my to do list, future plans, expenses - anything and everything in it.

Diaries have replaced those notepads now but the pattern continues. Yesterday while cleaning the bookshelf I found one of notepads of year 1995. I started reading that.

I was amused with some of the entries. I am sharing those with you, to express what I think about those after 15 years:

• Watched AHAT, good movie, buy audio
• Naina’s birthday on 26th
• Borrow civil services brochure from Sunil

Watched AHAT, good movie, buy audio

Year 1995 was the year of DDLJ (Dilwale Dulhaniya Le Jayenge). During this year another movie named Akele Hum Akele Tum was released.

I had no clue or review of that movie. But I went to watch the actress Manisha Koirala. I like chubby girls ; )

In the movie, the guy (AK - Aamir Khan) and the girl (MK - Manisha Koirala) had a common career. AK acts selfish till relationship breaks. AK fails and MK becomes a star. They go through troubled times. Finally AK tries to correct himself and MK forgives. They reunite.

I have always felt that even the worst looking relationship can be corrected if there is sense of realization of mistakes and forgiveness. But our ego comes in between. We expect each other to make up first.

Don’t wait. Make up first, even if you are on right side. Happiness starts where ego ends. I practice this in my life. It works.

Naina’s birthday on 26th

Naina was one of those simple looking girls in my college who believed in studies. She was sensitive and a little reserved.

Unfortunately I was more attracted towards lovelier looking girls; but I liked her. I sent her an unnamed bouquet on her birthday. Nothing happened till my birthday came when I received a bouquet from her. The very next day, I asked her. She smiled, “If you can send flowers to me, why can’t I?”

I still don’t know who disclosed my name; but I think, girls know, somehow. And if one could communicate to himself in the past; I would have asked myself never to lose touch with that girl.

But I've lost touch. Today I checked in Orkut, Linked in, etc, but she is not visible. I hope she is doing well.

Never let a good friend go. Send small surprise gifts….sometimes may be a visit or a phone call is good enough.

Borrow civil services brochure from Sunil

I can’t explain how much I was worried about civil services. I spent sleepless nights. I discussed with hundreds of people on what should be my career. I thought of becoming an IAS officer. But it so happened that I never even appeared once in any civil services examination.

I think destiny has a major role in our lives. I think, I work hard. I do take challenges. I fail and succeed. But I have realized, even master blaster Sachin may not come out successful in T20 matches.

When someone tells me, I am not good in a subject; I always hear I am good in another subject. Finally the overall capabilities are equal between two people. We do well once we identify the subject we are strong in. Successful people identify their area of strength a little earlier than the rest.

Wish you all the best.